Inventory

Inventory

I’m unable
to stifle
this pain
signal
from body
to brain
I’m losing
the game
over here
today

He’s taking
my
Inventory
having no
right to
and
I’m biting
my lip
drawing blood
in response

Decisions too
difficult
plague me
this morning
my flaws
are
showing up
between
written lines
in blogs

She’s taking
his
Inventory
having no
right to
and
I’m biting
my lip
drawing blood
in response

I can’t help
who I am
I know
what I need
I know
what I
want
I know
what I’ll
do
in the
end

My body
is screaming
in pain
my mind
is arguing
with what
to do
my soul
says fuck
everything
just drink
and this
is not
me

Insomnia and
painful
conditions
are sweeping
my life
into tiny
piles
that don’t
connect
to anything
anymore
and I
think this
sad

I
compartmentalize
just like
my characters
I’m trying
to save
myself
over here
Can you
take my
hand?
I am
weak
today
but this
isn’t bad

I can’t help
who I am
I know
what I need
I know
what I
want
I know
what I’ll
do
in the
end

He’s taking
my
Inventory
having
no
right to
and
I’m biting
my lip
drawing blood
not knowing
which way
to go

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